For the past few weeks, I have been "sorting myself out" more often than usual. Probably about once every 2 -3 hours in a day, sometimes twice within a span of 30 minutes. I can dare say for the past month, I've developed the urge to please myself at least more than 4 times a day at minimum. Congratulations, you're well on your way to sexual addiction, says the voice from the back of my head.
I don't know what brought on this sudden high libido or what is actually responsible for the extreme fluctuation of my sex drive, but it amazes me at contemplative moments like these as to how I've managed to come up with vast visual targets to cater for every single session.
I previously did an analysis on my jerk-off patterns and how I tend to select guys that fall into different categories based on my emotional mood. However, I've been observing yet another recurring pattern of mine that has been going on for a while.
I think deep down if I'm being honest with myself, I actually do harbour a physical and geographical preference as to the kind of men I am extremely attracted to or would eventually like to end up with. However physically speaking, I do experience a kind of overwhelming sexual attraction for only a certain type of guys within a particular time frame.
For example, there are times where I could go on for a full week thinking, wanting and yearning only for white guys as I please myself. I'd think about the hot candidates I've met in real life and also male celebrities whom are public figures.
Now with the same pattern in mind, this feverish sexual yearning would then in no particular order, repeat itself at any time within the next few horny sessions, yearning only for guys from Asia, dark-skinned men or Latinos respectively. In fact, these ethnic-specific phases that I'm in tend to render my attraction for the other races obsolete.
Last week, I found myself thinking about black guys which immediately made me wonder if this pattern has anything to do with my role of being versatile? So, negating the need to decry me for all superficialities aside, could this interesting pattern of mine translate to me being able to enjoy a wide spectrum of men for the physical, cultural and mental attributes that make up who they are as a whole?